I'm going to boot camp.
-giggles at the idea of me in BDUs-
I'm going to get fitter, healthier, cleaner.
I was inspired by ketpgirl aka Cindy and her group on FetLife the Slavegirl Figure Bootcamp.
I have had an interest in the raw food/vegan lifestyle for some time now and I could definitely lose some weight so I talked to Sir and I'm gonna do it!
I made the decision, invited a few local slavegirls to join me and off I go...
I even started a whole new blog to keep myself accountable on.
Check it out and watch as I shed the pounds, the clutter, the negativity and see the fresh new ^_^
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Trying to figure out Me
So I am trying to figure out Me. Who I am. All the components that make up Me and how the hell do I work with all of them?
In no particular order, I am:
a submissive
an age-player
a wife
a daughter/daughter-in-law
a "sister"
a friend
a person who is into eco-friendly living
a person who is into eating organically
a person not happy with their weight but who has not done anything about it
a cupcake lover
a cat person
a furry
an anime and manga geek but not an otaku
a procrastinator
a horror movie fan
a body modification fan
a polyamorist
a bi-sexual
a student of herbalism
a student of spirituality
Goals for the coming year
Sort of my new years resolutions
I'd like to be healthier. Not necessarily to loose weight, though that would be nice, but to not have to worry about blood pressure or blood sugar or aches and pains that occur seemingly without reason. I don't want to think about the fact that most of the food I have been eating the last four months doesn't resemble anything natural.
I'd like to be further along in the steps it takes to have my own business including publishing my book.
I'd like to release my fear and get the body modifications I want.
I'd like to be happier with myself.
In no particular order, I am:
a submissive
an age-player
a wife
a daughter/daughter-in-law
a "sister"
a friend
a person who is into eco-friendly living
a person who is into eating organically
a person not happy with their weight but who has not done anything about it
a cupcake lover
a cat person
a furry
an anime and manga geek but not an otaku
a procrastinator
a horror movie fan
a body modification fan
a polyamorist
a bi-sexual
a student of herbalism
a student of spirituality
Goals for the coming year
Sort of my new years resolutions
I'd like to be healthier. Not necessarily to loose weight, though that would be nice, but to not have to worry about blood pressure or blood sugar or aches and pains that occur seemingly without reason. I don't want to think about the fact that most of the food I have been eating the last four months doesn't resemble anything natural.
I'd like to be further along in the steps it takes to have my own business including publishing my book.
I'd like to release my fear and get the body modifications I want.
I'd like to be happier with myself.
Flesh & Blood and mods I'd like
There's a point in the movie where one of the people interviewed said that if you seek pain and learn to deal with it, when pain comes to you unexpectedly, you can handle it better. I like to believe that.
The best part of the whole documentary was the in tandem suspension between Gomes and his partner. It was beautiful and romantic and just...wow.
When it cam to Ashly being in a relationship with the other two I'm glad it showed just how difficult a poly relationship can be. Its hard. The same with Steve and Beki not lasting. I'm glad they were open and honest about that sort of thing.
I would love to do some suspension. Daddy definately wants to try it from a spiritual stand point. I am now also thinking of an idea of an implant that looks like rope around my wrist - that would be HAWT!
Thank you Panda's Property for recommending I watch this.
The best part of the whole documentary was the in tandem suspension between Gomes and his partner. It was beautiful and romantic and just...wow.
When it cam to Ashly being in a relationship with the other two I'm glad it showed just how difficult a poly relationship can be. Its hard. The same with Steve and Beki not lasting. I'm glad they were open and honest about that sort of thing.
I would love to do some suspension. Daddy definately wants to try it from a spiritual stand point. I am now also thinking of an idea of an implant that looks like rope around my wrist - that would be HAWT!
Thank you Panda's Property for recommending I watch this.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Modify
Modify was a decent documentary about body modification.
I liked that those interviewed brought up the fact that a simple hair cut or a trip to the tanning bed is technically body modification. Its all part of a spectrum from hair cut to piercing to tattooing to implants to amputation.
Speaking of amputations, its the only thing that was mentioned repeatedly in the documentary that wasn't shown.
I recommend it for anyone who is interested in body modification in the point of view of anthropology or research.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
My Happy Birthday ^_^
My birthday started midnight December 19th and went to 4 pm December 21st. I was born December 20th 1988 at 4:07 pm (after 12 hours of labor my mother will always comment).
I started getting amazing birthday wishes immediately - thanks everyone ^_^
I also started it off right, in my opinion, with amazing birthday sex with Sir Phryxus. He was wonderful and forceful and combined my kink for D/s, age play and plushies until I almost passed out from orgasmic bliss.
He then held me all night, to my knowledge. I did wake up around 2 or 3 AM to find hims till holding me close and it made me smile and get all warm in all the right places.
When I woke up with Sir that morning I was still happy, despite him having to go to work. He wished me happy birthday, gave me a kiss and out the door he went.
I checked my FetLife and FaceBook to find even more birthday well wishing then tried to go back to sleep...in vain. So I took naughty piccies for Sir and sent them to him at work ^_^
After I woke up fully and had my first cup of coffee I opened the birthday presents my mom sent me. Her and I don't get along but they were still pretty good presents and I know she still loves me even after all the craziness of our relationship.
These 2 gifts along with the ceramic fairy from my in-laws were the only physical gifts I received and they were great.
I then made sure the overnight bag was packed. Clothes for Wednesday - check. 3 floggers - check. 1 crop - check. 2 clothespins - check. 250 ft of rope - check. Silk blindfold - check. Comfortable shoes - check.
All ready ^_^
Sir Phryxus came home early and we got ready quickly to go and meet my lil brother Synn who drove in from out of state just for me! We got to my friend Amy's house before Synn did so Sir started constructing my rope corset for the night there.
We then got Synn and grabbed pizza, which we ate in the parking lot of Fuzzy Holes.
In the club we hung out with my friends Revrin, club owner Anita, Sir's cousins "Jason" and "Nora" and, of course, Sir and Synn. And the dancers of course.
We ate pink champagne cupcakes, cake truffles, and drank absinthe and rum and sake and Crown Royale.
Sir had a good time with his slave, Synn, who he showed off well - especially the fact that Synn was wearing pretty Strawberry Shortcake panties ^_^
From the club we went to Revrin's house where Sir and Synn had a short scene with rope, floggers and crop. Sir dropped Synn into sub-space fairly quickly, worked him through it then went into nurturing-Sir mode after to bring him out of it gradually. Synn ended up on the couch snuggling a braided length of rope and half-consciously smoking a cigarette. I had a super compersion moment at that point watching them together. It was so cute.
Sir and Revrin also played guitars and sang for a bit, which is always a treat. The four of us also played Kings Hell House Rules - I love that game ^_^ I ended up pulling the Joker and made Sir my slave...not that I acted on that, I wouldn't know what to do with a slave if I had one.
We then crashed splendedly. Synn said he didn't move the whole night and slept like a rock - I wonder if the sub space of the bottle of Crown Royale did it lol
It was hard to see Synn leave today. I will miss him but Sir and I are gonna try and have him down in the next month or so, at least by Sir's b-day in March.
I had a great birthday (will have pics up soon as I get them all from Synn). Thank you everyone for the happy wishes and blessings ^_^ I feel very loved.
I started getting amazing birthday wishes immediately - thanks everyone ^_^
I also started it off right, in my opinion, with amazing birthday sex with Sir Phryxus. He was wonderful and forceful and combined my kink for D/s, age play and plushies until I almost passed out from orgasmic bliss.
He then held me all night, to my knowledge. I did wake up around 2 or 3 AM to find hims till holding me close and it made me smile and get all warm in all the right places.
When I woke up with Sir that morning I was still happy, despite him having to go to work. He wished me happy birthday, gave me a kiss and out the door he went.
I checked my FetLife and FaceBook to find even more birthday well wishing then tried to go back to sleep...in vain. So I took naughty piccies for Sir and sent them to him at work ^_^
After I woke up fully and had my first cup of coffee I opened the birthday presents my mom sent me. Her and I don't get along but they were still pretty good presents and I know she still loves me even after all the craziness of our relationship.
These 2 gifts along with the ceramic fairy from my in-laws were the only physical gifts I received and they were great.
I then made sure the overnight bag was packed. Clothes for Wednesday - check. 3 floggers - check. 1 crop - check. 2 clothespins - check. 250 ft of rope - check. Silk blindfold - check. Comfortable shoes - check.
All ready ^_^
Sir Phryxus came home early and we got ready quickly to go and meet my lil brother Synn who drove in from out of state just for me! We got to my friend Amy's house before Synn did so Sir started constructing my rope corset for the night there.
We then got Synn and grabbed pizza, which we ate in the parking lot of Fuzzy Holes.
In the club we hung out with my friends Revrin, club owner Anita, Sir's cousins "Jason" and "Nora" and, of course, Sir and Synn. And the dancers of course.
We ate pink champagne cupcakes, cake truffles, and drank absinthe and rum and sake and Crown Royale.
Sir had a good time with his slave, Synn, who he showed off well - especially the fact that Synn was wearing pretty Strawberry Shortcake panties ^_^
From the club we went to Revrin's house where Sir and Synn had a short scene with rope, floggers and crop. Sir dropped Synn into sub-space fairly quickly, worked him through it then went into nurturing-Sir mode after to bring him out of it gradually. Synn ended up on the couch snuggling a braided length of rope and half-consciously smoking a cigarette. I had a super compersion moment at that point watching them together. It was so cute.
Sir and Revrin also played guitars and sang for a bit, which is always a treat. The four of us also played Kings Hell House Rules - I love that game ^_^ I ended up pulling the Joker and made Sir my slave...not that I acted on that, I wouldn't know what to do with a slave if I had one.
We then crashed splendedly. Synn said he didn't move the whole night and slept like a rock - I wonder if the sub space of the bottle of Crown Royale did it lol
It was hard to see Synn leave today. I will miss him but Sir and I are gonna try and have him down in the next month or so, at least by Sir's b-day in March.
I had a great birthday (will have pics up soon as I get them all from Synn). Thank you everyone for the happy wishes and blessings ^_^ I feel very loved.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Psychopathia Sexualis
I was directed towards the movie Psychopathia Sexualis by chained_angel on FetLife when I asked for more movies to review (as I had already watched Story of O, Fetishes and Kink).
The movie shows scenes described in the study Psychopathia Sexualis that was made during the Victorian Era. I have to be careful about watching movies like these or even reading books with similar material as insane asylums are one of my biggest phobias and it gives me nightmares.
Some of the scenes squicked me out (like urinating in the mouth of a whore at the brothel and lobotomy) and, of course, I didn't agree with most of the conjectures made by the author of this study...but it was made by a man in an era where women did not have the rights they have today.
At one point it was stated of male submission that they were stripped of their manhood and made low, in the place of a woman. It made me consider who author Masoch surely was viewed by his peers as being...sick, having something truly wrong with him. Today, I am glad there is a better understanding of this at least in the psychological world even if it isn't accepted by the general public.
The costumes were lovely - gotta love a woman in a corset ^_^
And I must say I was inspired by the scene of the whore beating the customer with roses.
I think the doctor's words toward the homosexual man with a fetish for mustaches sums of the general view of men that day towards homosexuals: its not unnatural to have those feelings but to act on them was perversion - meaning its ok to be a homosexual but not to have sex with the same gender. I sadly don't think this view has changed much today in the general public.
The shadow puppet art was weird and very pretty at the same time. I love the use of it like horror porn in the story. Just goes to show that people haven't changed much over time.
I must say I cannot help but wonder what the doctor's sex life was like lol
The movie shows scenes described in the study Psychopathia Sexualis that was made during the Victorian Era. I have to be careful about watching movies like these or even reading books with similar material as insane asylums are one of my biggest phobias and it gives me nightmares.
Some of the scenes squicked me out (like urinating in the mouth of a whore at the brothel and lobotomy) and, of course, I didn't agree with most of the conjectures made by the author of this study...but it was made by a man in an era where women did not have the rights they have today.
At one point it was stated of male submission that they were stripped of their manhood and made low, in the place of a woman. It made me consider who author Masoch surely was viewed by his peers as being...sick, having something truly wrong with him. Today, I am glad there is a better understanding of this at least in the psychological world even if it isn't accepted by the general public.
The costumes were lovely - gotta love a woman in a corset ^_^
And I must say I was inspired by the scene of the whore beating the customer with roses.
I think the doctor's words toward the homosexual man with a fetish for mustaches sums of the general view of men that day towards homosexuals: its not unnatural to have those feelings but to act on them was perversion - meaning its ok to be a homosexual but not to have sex with the same gender. I sadly don't think this view has changed much today in the general public.
The shadow puppet art was weird and very pretty at the same time. I love the use of it like horror porn in the story. Just goes to show that people haven't changed much over time.
I must say I cannot help but wonder what the doctor's sex life was like lol
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